2013

thanks 2013 for the lesson...
aku tutup buku 2013 dengan lafaz alhamdulillah..
terima kasih Tuhan kerana izinkan aku bernafas lagi pada tahun ini..
banyak .... terlalu banyak perkara yang ajar manusia supaya jadi lebih dewasa dari hari ke hari..
untuk 2013.. aku dapat rasa pahit, manis, getir macam mana hidup kat negara orang..
macam mana rasa perit menanggung tanggungjawab sebagai mobiliti student.. bile gagal buat kali pertama di sana.. Tuhan saja yang tahu perasaan.. family jauh berbatu batu... nak balik mmg xdapat lah kan... nasib baik ada sahabat yg baik hati semuanya saling memberi motivasi sbb semua alami benda yang sama.. macam mana kami bergerak, belajar sama-sama, dan berusaha selagi mampu nak score dan back up balik... Subhanallah.. dengan izin Dia, Dia tolong hamba-hamba -Nya..
bila sakit, berusaha sedaya upaya cari bantuan..nak uruskan hal ni sedikit complicated memandangkan kami bukan warganegara..
nak cakap rindu kat family..bohong cakap kalau tak rindu..hampir 5 bulan... tak jumpa..berhubung pun melalui phone atau internet..itupun ikut keadaan..sbb kadang2 takde coverage..
macam mana kami bergerak dari 1 tempat ke tempat lain.. melompat-lompat kenderaan..sekejap bas, sekejap teksi, sekejap angkut, sekejap kereta kuda..tak pelah, asalkan sampai dah cukup bersyukur dah...
serius, pengalaman ni betul2 mengajar aku.. dan mungkin kawan2 yang lain.. bila kita rasa susah, time tu kita akan betul-betul appreciate dengan hasil usaha yang kita dapat walaupun sikit..

besides that, 2013 is the undescribe-feelings year...where people come and go from my life.. where i met this person..and i can't describe the feeling.. let it between me and Allah..and just follow the flow.. may Allah ease everything if the niat or intentions are good..

Thanks 2013..
i hope this 2014 books will be decorated nicely.. Insya-ALLAH

(p/s: mr arrogant suke minum cool blog chocolate mint...tett..)

Problem

its all about me, mak and problem..

since in boarding school followed by matriculation college, and early semester in university...

i never missed to tell mak about my problem..

well sometimes i think it really annoy mak..hee.. 

mak keep saying this word, 

 "Acu.. udah le tuu masalahnye,, mak pun susah hati dengo citer kamu..cuba buat sesuatu yg mak tak rasa susah hati..." 

i am a stubborn girl.. well, i dont care about it..and keep story those uninteresting news to mak.. =.='

unfortunately, my stubborn deeds not even make me feel calm on anything i do.. and it makes the problem that i faces grew bigger and bigger.... 

then i think......

             and think.... and this quote really makes me think on what i have done to mak..

                                              رضى الله في رضى الوالدين ، وسخط الله في سخط الوالدين.

 Terjemahan: Redha Allah adalah pada redha kedua ibu bapa, dan murka Allah adalah pada murka ibu bapa.

maybe i frequently makes mak 'susah hati' and 'tak senang duduk', Allah close all the solutions for my problem.. and at the end i will forever live with problems ... Nauzubillah = (

slowly i learn ....

now, as the time passed.. and i know, i getting older and can think wisely ..

the conversation about problem with mak seems faded away.. 

yeah, because i make a limitation for myself when talking to mak.. 

the limitation is, trying my best not to story about problem to mak.. 

when talking with mak, i will talk with a cheerful voice..

and when mak ask about study..i will just reply..ok, alhamdulillah..

eventhough i feel im not really understand on a certain subjects in class.. 

and Alhamdulillah. at this point.. i found a bit of happiness for my soul..

and the moron called 'problem' seems running away for me.. 

Syukur .. 

p/s: rindu kuttttttttt kat mak abahh...wuwuwuwuwu~~~~~~~..thanks kak nyah sbb dtg melaka :)